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StampedeGirl
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Name: Nicole
Birthday: 3/26/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: MUSIC!! Rock, punk, techno, classical, emo, heavy metal, "new metal"
Anime
Painting, drawing, sculpting, photography, flute, guitar,piano,
music video code by urbnmix.net
offspring - cant get my head around you
Expertise: Umm... obviously not computer codes... or anything else computer based for that matter...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  Crazymonkey1926
Member Since:
8/7/2004
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|    Why do I only ever feel like crying anymore... why do I feel so alone... music and art have become my only friends and they can't see my tears, can't comfort me and erase all of my fears, it's as if everything i knew has disappeared, like its all faded through the years... but now its gone... all gone, so fuck the world i give up i'm done with you i'm on my own , fate be kind to the soul you've broken, for it can't take another blow, born to be alone, forever forgotten and never rewarded, so is my life that I have resigned to... | | |
| *sigh* I'm so bored with life... at the end of last school year I told myself everything would be different this year. I told myself I would actually see my friends this summer, that I would do something and write more songs, that I would step up and talk to more people... but of course it was all a lie. I always lie to myself like that, I always make myself believe I can be better... I build myself up, tell myself I'm not a loser, when all I'm really trying to do is be someone else... be someone with a life and talent, and self confidence... But that's not who I am... it's something I can never be... I always be a loner and a loser, a geek, dork, ugly, fat, and quiet... I have no life, my music, art, and my friends are my life, because there is nothing else out there for me... fuck it all... I just want to dissapear, like everything around me that I love... Live in a cave, alone in the dark... like the phantom of the opera... ~Miss Phantom~Nicki~ | | |
|  I'm thinking of shutting this down... I dont post on here anymore maybe twice in 6 months lol anyway it's summer, I'm bored, I have a job, and it's late... Bedtime? I think so Wow... short entry yeah i'll put this thing out of its misry soon...
~NIcki~ | | |
| wow i havent posted in forever... i'm not even gonna bother refreshing my chatterbox cause no one ever posts anymore anyway :P so anyway here we go with something extremely vague yet strangely... damnit i forgot the word... on the tip of my fricken tongue... shit ok it explains a lot but tells you nothing
So I like this guy, he's really nice, and I talk to him everyday, but the thing is he doesn't like me that way... I keep almost tricking myself into believing that maybe he does like me but i know in my heart that he's just being a nice guy, and he is... he's sweet, and caring, funny, smart, sympathetic, athletic, and cute too! I just don't want to get hurt... odds are I will... like i always do... Its all because I don't like to be single and I've been single for over 2 months... I hate to admit it but I'm lonely... but not when I'm with him... but I dont think he likes me... (here's where Ray stops holding his breath thinking it's him) and he's not over his ex-girlfriend yet... *sigh*
"Shoot my cupid outta the sky/ Tear off his wings and gouge out his eyes/ Thank him for nothing cause that's all that he gave to me..."
ok thats where i'll stop for now... i have a project to finish...
~Nicki~ | | |
| FUCK THAT LAST ENTRY! LOl well at least that crap I wrote at the end about Chris! lol anyway! Yeah you know the deal if you either read my myspace or just know from me talking about it! wow the crap that happens in High School. Fuck the whole thing, anyway... ...
8 DAYS
TILL
MY 16th BIRTHDAY!!!!
SWOOT! ^0^
LOL can't wait, I have a car, I'm getting my permit soon, I feel free for the first time in a LONG time, my grades are pretty good, I've fallen in love with my guitar, and I have my friends always by my side. *sigh* lets just hope I stay like this... I normally don''t for very long... ANYWAY! I just hope one of my works gets into Windscript...
~Nicki ~ | | |
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